ONE - number of times I have gone to the bathroom alone today
TWO- times I have put all the DVDs back in the entertainment center today.
THREE - meals have been cooked and it's the number of times I will do the dishes today
FOUR - munchkins ran around here all day
FIVE - poopy diapers changed so far (apparently the prunes worked for Isaac!!)
SIX - loads of laundry waiting to be folded lol (you may have noticed a trend that I am not the best at folding)
SEVEN - hugs and kisses given and received
EIGHT - picture and text messages sent to parents and grandparents of our fun today. I won't mention that I only received three "LOL" texts all day back...
NINE - times I have washed my hands.
TEN times I will be sure to thank God for all the wonderful blessings he has given me!!
bonus 11 just for Jon...
ELEVEN times I have rolled on the floor laughing (while clearing my throat). Apparently SOME people think I over use "rofl" . And talk to the person who broke my nose about my throat clearing...he knows who he is!!! He actually sat behind me in church a few years ago...my nose ached the whole time.
ps- thanks to everyone for their encouragement and support! It's nice to know I am not the only one who has these thoughts. And it means the world to me to have the encouragement of my mom and sister.
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
Monday, May 30, 2011
Perspective
I have found myself thinking and praying a lot this week. Not that I don't think or pray normally haha...just more than usual I guess. Two weeks ago I decided that I wanted to try to get Isaac to take a bottle again. So I could have some more free time and leave every once and a while. He used to take one so I didn't think it would be a big deal. How wrong was I lol. He refuses...closes his mouth up, cries and won't even suck on it. I kept thinking...what am I doing wrong...what do I need to do to get him to take a bottle...why won't he take one...am I going to be nursing him forever lol.
I have also been thinking a lot about what God's plan for me is. Is it really as simple as staying home with kids during the day? How silly I am sometimes.
But after a lot of praying and a lot of thought their paths seemed to cross into one thing and things seemed to make sense. They seem to make even more sense as I write them down now. My job is to be the best mom and wife I can be. I am sure of it. We lost a whole income 7 months ago...and we still pay the bills every month. This could be only God's doing. When I still enjoy being with all four kids at the end of the day...I am very certain this is God's doing. When I feel a sense of pride in taking care of our house for my family...this is God's doing.
For me, being the best mom I can be means being here for Isaac whenever he needs. I am not going to lie...there are times, especially in the middle of the night I wish he would take a bottle. But my job is to be the best I can be...and that means being here for Isaac every 3.5 to 4 hours. I still almost cry when I think about trying to force him to take a bottle. He obviously doesn't want one...he wants mommy. And why would I ever want to change that. So instead of wishing for free time...wishing for sleep... or wishing I could have a large dr. pepper or other foods that bother him, I have changed my perspective. I think about the wonderful bond I have with this little guy. I think of how he cuddles with me and gives little kisses. I think of how I am doing the best thing for him and that makes me happy. I have found myself enjoying feeding him at night now. Sure I am tired...but what mom isn't! And when I am feeding him in the middle of the night the house is so quite..it's just him and I rocking away. It's peaceful and soon he won't need it anymore so I will treasure every moment of it.
I am still working on what it means to me to be the best wife. Perhaps I should have Jon write his thoughts on that one lol. But I am reading the book A Wife After God's Heart. It really is a good book and I am enjoying it. I will say that this past week I enjoyed folding the clothes and cleaning the house a lot more. It means a lot to me to do things for my family, even if they are small things. I have found that when I do the small things during the day it means Jon and I have more time together during the evening.
So I will keep praying for God to help me and I know with his help I will be doing exactly what he wants me to be doing.
I have also been thinking a lot about what God's plan for me is. Is it really as simple as staying home with kids during the day? How silly I am sometimes.
But after a lot of praying and a lot of thought their paths seemed to cross into one thing and things seemed to make sense. They seem to make even more sense as I write them down now. My job is to be the best mom and wife I can be. I am sure of it. We lost a whole income 7 months ago...and we still pay the bills every month. This could be only God's doing. When I still enjoy being with all four kids at the end of the day...I am very certain this is God's doing. When I feel a sense of pride in taking care of our house for my family...this is God's doing.
For me, being the best mom I can be means being here for Isaac whenever he needs. I am not going to lie...there are times, especially in the middle of the night I wish he would take a bottle. But my job is to be the best I can be...and that means being here for Isaac every 3.5 to 4 hours. I still almost cry when I think about trying to force him to take a bottle. He obviously doesn't want one...he wants mommy. And why would I ever want to change that. So instead of wishing for free time...wishing for sleep... or wishing I could have a large dr. pepper or other foods that bother him, I have changed my perspective. I think about the wonderful bond I have with this little guy. I think of how he cuddles with me and gives little kisses. I think of how I am doing the best thing for him and that makes me happy. I have found myself enjoying feeding him at night now. Sure I am tired...but what mom isn't! And when I am feeding him in the middle of the night the house is so quite..it's just him and I rocking away. It's peaceful and soon he won't need it anymore so I will treasure every moment of it.
I am still working on what it means to me to be the best wife. Perhaps I should have Jon write his thoughts on that one lol. But I am reading the book A Wife After God's Heart. It really is a good book and I am enjoying it. I will say that this past week I enjoyed folding the clothes and cleaning the house a lot more. It means a lot to me to do things for my family, even if they are small things. I have found that when I do the small things during the day it means Jon and I have more time together during the evening.
So I will keep praying for God to help me and I know with his help I will be doing exactly what he wants me to be doing.
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